p u r e l y . e m i l y

sometimes it takes a lot of me to get through the day. today is one of those days. - last week was so gratifying. nothing remarkable happened, but i was able to find some peace in pursuing a few goals and reevaluating my educational journey. that meant the world to me, to find a small amount of clarity amongst the countless items on my agenda that need further considerations. i felt a wave of relief from the weight of worry as it began to dwindle from my thoughts, and for this i am grateful. - i am a worrier, i believe most of those who are close with me would be able to see this quality of mine. because of this i am almost always overwhelmed with concern about insignificant thoughts in addition to the few other issues i should be focusing on. this troubles me more often than not, but then again i could be dealing with more perplexing circumstances and for this i am grateful. - i've been frustrated today and with being frustrated i am even more upset with myself. i feel like ...

to be honest, i started this morning feeling heavy hearted for no specific reason. just one of those days. as i went to my third class of the day all i wanted to do was curl up and sleep away the hours. i almost couldn't make it through the class just because of how difficult it was to focus. a clouded mind and my slumping shoulders brought me to my next class that surprisingly ended earlier than it normally does- i then looked at my phone to see notifications from friends in town for the week. they seemed so overwhelming and i was tempted to ignore all of them, sit in the library and listen to some somber songs and wallow away in my feelings. instead, i lead myself to my car. i drove to their house and made an effort to socialize with the people who are always there for me. after that visit, came another and then a phone call with someone else who was then reaching out to me. i could have sat in that library and let my thoughts get the best of me, but decided to turn the day ar...